Monday blues

So I woke up today in a dull mood again. I confronted the reality that I have no desire to go beyond the marked finish line. When I was in high school I was one of many that had no desire to do anything or become something. Some people have the initiative and achievement drive to do more than just the norm. I think my personality is such that allows me to adapt to different environments and make myself a part of the group, but I have no desire to become the leader or to take a step up.

I like staying inside the lines and not going outside the box. I find it to be too stressful and I don't want to go out of my comfort zone. This is contradictory to doing jigsaw puzzles, where even though there is no picture I still like putting the puzzle together. I guess the conclusion is that the type of stress that you obtain depends on whether you want to confront it or just completely avoid it.